Ed. Note: Whitney was an activist for the legalization of marijuana and other substances. Here are two articles that explore the possible occultic ritualistic aspects of Whitney’s death: Super Bowl Half Time Satanic Ritual and the Murder of Whitney Houston? The Mass Media Matrix, Blood Line Vampires and the Murder of the Beloved Gospel Singer.
Rock Rap The post office at the University of Miami was tucked away; you’d hardly notice it. And it wasn’t much on the inside either. A wall of post office boxes, standard marble linoleum floor and ever-present humidity.
The cardboard box looked like every other, too. “Arista,” the return address said. Yet the doe-eyed girl with the curly hair and the expensive photo session spoke to me. She didn’t look much older, and she seemed so alive in the moment.
“I hope this doesn’t suck,” I remember thinking, knowing Clive Davis’ predilection for drama queens and divas, Barry Manilows and frumpy AC. I wanted to like this girl, in the days when MTV was exotic and dance music ruled the clubs.
Back in my dorm room, she killed me. That voice: the power, the range, the essence of being alive. She had diva range, but she didn’t bludgeon you with it. Instead she leapt over tall buildings, turned cartwheels and seemingly laughed while she was doing it!
“How Will I Know?” seemed to be the anthem for Every(young)woman trying to find herself, wondering if he was the one. She understood, though, how to bob on the anxiety like a cork – and her ebullience gave us all something to cling to as we figured out who we were.
While she was pretty, staggeringly pretty, a former 17 covergirl, as well as the niece of Dionne Watwick and daughter of gospel stalwart Cissy Houston, she didn’t seem otherworldly. Whitney Houston could have been one of us, came off as someone who would talk to us. She even in the moments of big vocalizing seemed to feel our pain, our desire, our rapture, our hope.
“Saving All My Love For You” and “The Greatest Love of All” – both bravura turns – had just enough innocence to let us know these were emotions mortals could feel, too. Yes, she looked like a goddess and sang with the kind of powerhouse acumen that would cause Mariah Carey to bludgeon and over-sing through her first few records, but Houston’s heart was pure.
It wouldn’t last, of course.
The industry would start putting walls between us, currying favor and encouraging diva-like behavior. The stakes and expectations would rise. The toadying would increase. No doubt the disorientation and then vertigo would follow.
She could come off as the same effervescent girl, shiny and happy in the “I Wanna Dance With Somebody”” video, but the unraveling was already being set into motion. Not yet. No, there would be another album that would provide the perky uptempo feel good moments – “So Emotional” and “Love Will Save The Day” – a la the Supremes, and the big ballads – “Didn’t We Almost Have It All” – that would recall Diana Ross’ most serious solo work.
It was still the music and the image of exquisite perfection. No troubles, no drama. Just a mahogany goddess who poured down light like the sun. Right up until the burn started. If the second album found Houston in a white tank top, hair flying free and easy, “I’m Your Baby Tonight” saw a young woman in the Limited’s universal Firenze sweater – just like the rest of us – only seated side-saddle on a motorcycle.
She wasn’t trashy, wasn’t a whore, but was certainly opening up to the thrills life has to offer. As the MTV Onset Generation’s Beyonce, she was the object of fantasy – and it wasn’t long until Bobby Brown, New Edition’s resident bad boy and emerging solo force, came calling.
There were whispers. There were fierce fights that made the tabloids. There was, obviously, drug use. But there was also more music… the stuff of true soul queen proportions… and the movie that made her an international superstar a la Miss Ross: “The Bodyguard.” Co-starring heavyweight serious man-hunk of the day Kevin Costner as the man assigned to protect the star from a stalker, it was a smash.
Beyond the film, where Houston’s goddess-on-pedestal perception was tempered with a humanity, range of emotions and skosh of street smart homegirleality, there was the gigantic performance of Dolly Parton’s “I Will Always Love You” that served as the film’s theme. What had been written as an enduring good-bye with gratitude to Parton’s once mentor Porter Wagoner was turned into a tour de force of love beyond limits that sat at #1 on every radio chart across the world for months. Ubiquitous isn’t nearly enough: car radios played it relentlessly, talent shows were over-run with it.
Whitney Houston, the most unilateral girl singer possibly ever, had graduated to the ranks of inescapable, but was still capable of turning in truly monstrously great vocal performances. She slayed “The National Anthem” on a regular basis. She performed with her aunt and mother on a gospel medley and left jaws slack.
Yet, there was something ravaging the grown woman’s psyche. Never mind the theoretical alliance with r&b’s hottest male star, nor their small daughter Bobby Christina. Like George Jones and Tammy Wynette before them – right down to a self- tribute-named-daughter named Tamela Georgette – she and Brown seemed hell-bent on conflict, destruction, consumption and being lashed together with a love that would ultimately eviscerate them.
There was the infamous “crack is whack” interview, where Houston seemingly blitzed beyond reason came across not as Ghetto Fabulous, the way newcomer soul queens like Mary J Blige were, but ghetto tragic: out of her mind, possibly lost forever and absolutely throwing herself into a gutter she had no business being in.
Was Brown’s rapacious drug use the issue? Had the wild thing sucked Houston under? Or had she so soured on being America’s sweetheart that she found the good girl role repellent?
Hard to say. Plus, addiction’s addiction. Once you’re in its jaws, it’s hard to ever escape. And in show business, there’s always someone dying to give you a bump, a hit, a puff to gain access to a world they’d have no other entrée to. Plus once you start bottom-feeding, you change the game of both the quality of people you attract and their willingness to not protect you.
The tabloids lit up. Drama. Drugs. Physical altercations. Skeletal pictures. Flubbed performances. Court appearances. Cancelled shows. Riots. It was a fiesta of bad news, and it kept getting worse.
Yes, she made attempts to get clean. Divorced Brown, who’d been arrested on various charges of battery and domestic violence; but not before taking that “hood stance” of so many women that “that’s my man…” regardless of what he was doing, even to her.
Whitney Houston languished, became a punchline – not even a cautionary tale about drug use. So extreme, it was comedic – that awkward laughing when it’s too uncomfortable to face. So lost, she didn’t seem to notice what was gone – or consider how to come back.
That wasn’t what was important. What was? Hard to say. There would be glimpses. Maddening seconds where we could remember. Introduced by Prince Andrew of Monaco at “The World Music Awards,” where her weightlessly compelling reading of “I Will Always Love You” – defying gravity, clinging with such strength to the notion of a love that would never let go — eclipsed any scurrilous notion or harsh photograph.
For the Dawn of MTV Generation – and countless waves of young people who came after – Whitney Houston was definitive. Mariah could pummel a song; Alicia Keys, another Clive Davis protégé, could scale melodies with startling ease; Christina Aguilera could toss columns of air around like feathers, but none was Whitney.
Whitney Houston: effortless, gracious, glorious. She was glamorous even in a pair of beat-up jeans, hair a mess and giant sunglasses hiding heaven knew. She could sing circles around all of them – and had a knack for finding songs that spoke to feelings even larger than her voice – a gargantuan instrument – seemed to carry.
It was all so sad. The train wreck her life became. The music and film careers she eschewed. The chaos the public seemingly would never know. The squalor that swallowed her as drugs devoured her life.
Clive Davis remained unflagging in his support. Rumbles would tumble down the grapevine of a comeback. Houston would get clean, would come out, would dazzle. But had the moment passed? Could she maintain the strain?
It was hard to say. Harder still to know…
Until an hour ago, when a few random postings hit the Facebook feed. Then the requisite Google News Search provided entirely too much independent sourcing. Whitney Houston was dead… no cause or whereabouts given… confirmed by her publicist to the ever vigilant and utterly credible Nekesa Moody of the Associated Press… on the night of Clive Davis’ annual pre-Grammy soiree.
Ramdon. Sudden. Wham!
Too many images flooding my mind. Too many songs jump-cutting in my head. Too many memories laced into the soundtrack of growing up at the University of Miami, with a ten-year old Mustang with no air conditioning – windows down, radio painting the immediate vicinity with those shiy early hits.
Equally warm and heavy afternoons in Silver Lake, waiting on my star to rise… knowing that my name in Rolling Stone, Musician and The Los Angeles Times would take me places I couldn’t imagine. Los Angeles so glamorous, girls like Whitney Houston with their perfect bodies and satin skin dressed to kill intimidating the a Midwestern girl in me… and yet on those afternoons of stultifying heat and doubt about the future, I could put on my pink bunny slippers and “I Wanna Dance With Somebody” and jump around the apartment until I wore myself out.
My beau at the time would return from the office to find me, t-shirt knotted up, hair matted with sweat and the album cover propped against our wall of vinyl and laugh. “Face down in Whitney Houston again?” he’d ask. “Get any writing done?”
Often the answer was “not really,” to which he’d reply “Feel any better?”
Inevitably, the answer was “Yes.” For if she could, why wouldn’t I?
Only a matter of believing, pushing off the bottom and staying happy.
Staying happy is the trick. It seemed to elude her. Screw the talent, the charmed life, the bold faced-ery of it all. Screw the maggots who prey on the famous; the drugs, high impact great love in Brown. Damn the brokers of glisten who forget that it’s the music that saves.
Somewhere Cissy Houston has a broken heart, Dionne Warwick is thinking about every sad song she ever sang. Don’t even think about Bobby Christina, who lost the disaster that carried her for nine months and was the fierce mother who fought for every choice she ever made.
It was a waste, however it happened – and it don’t matter how. Whitney Houston’s gone. All that promise, that light, that talent: silenced.
Whatever it was, well, it happened. There’s no turning back, not much reason to wonder what if. The tragedy is the entitlement of fame, the predators they draw like moths to light and the reasons too many people don’t step in.
We as a culture have made vanity first a reason, now a blood sport. To be the hottest, youngest, famest, flamest… Lindsey Lohan has been choking on the fumes of this since before she could drive; Demi Moore and Heather Locklear are both locked up, unable to cope with inevitable reality of aging and hard-partying lives of privilege that are indulged for those who exist beyond the mortal coil.
Seemingly, they are immortal. So they don’t just believe, but are sold by everyone who would sell them out. Lying to themselves and each other about the loyalty of those around them, convincing themselves it can’t happen to them.
Until right now.
Whitney Houston’s gone. She will, no doubt, always love us – perfection collapsed in Kevin Costner’s arms in the climax of “The Bodyguard;” frozen in infamy as one more snuffed out too soon and with God knows how much left to create.
Tonight, Clive Davis will have his party – where she was slated to sing. Among those gathering will be some of pop, rock and soul’s true royality: Quincy Jones, See Lo Green, Tony Bennett, Sean “Puffy” Combs, Jackson Brown, Jennifer Hudson, Elvix Costello and Diane Krall. What they will make this loss mean remains to be seen…
What it means to me is this: Create. Love. Be. Embrace every moment. Respect what you’re given. Honor the people around you. Be grateful for others’ work, their efforts, their gifts.
Try generosity and grace, eschew judgement and especially live with honor.
We all know right from wrong; good from bad, the straight path from the slippery slope – and we’ve all watched people we love teeter. Rather than say “It’s not my place,” let’s all reach out, steady or even pull them back. Yes, they might get mad, but in the end, better to cause rancor and save them than tacitly enable the things that can kill.
Whitney Houston was 48. That is the middle of middle age. Tony Bennett is still vital, still msking music and taking our breath away… So should it have been for her, for us.
How will we know, indeed?
– Holly Gleason, 2/11/12